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HELLO EVERYONE! :D WOW IT'S BEEN AGES SINCE MY LAST VISIT TO THIS SO-CALLED JOURNAL OF LIFE. LOL

well, as you know, i've started my life here at UITM SHAH ALAM since 8th September 2012. here we go! the first step is made! and now, 31st December 2012, the last day of 2012, here i am, lepak-ing at my room without even looking at the book! pretty stupid, right? yet final exam is 3 days apart. sigh~

this so-called study week is actually my vacation week though i never experience such thing before. hahahaha... all of my family come and visited me here. errr, okay, stop exaggerating, Ziela. actually, the come  here to celebrate my lil bro's birthday, KJ on the 22nd December. Plus, skali pg urus rumah di Rawang.

so, sepanjang diorg di sini, saya pun turut menumpang sekaki pegi jalan2 walaupun sedar yang itu sebenarnya bukan cuti secuti-cutinya. it was actually my STUDY WEEK!!! PERLU STUDY DAN BUKANNYA MAIN2!! BLERGHHHHH~~

Well, bukan selalu pun dapat vacation family mcm ni. that's why i took the chance. i'll story-morie more later. now, focus on the book! insyaAllah!

ALL THE BEST FOR FINAL EXAM!! 화이팅!!!

STEP BY STEP

Hello~ it's been a while... :)

well, news? this--> BM230.

"Bachelor of Business Administration (Hons) Business Economics"

yeah.. no more Law. kinda happy for this but the deeper i dig into this NEW course, the more worry i am. :/ some people say this course focused on Math but it's more detail. meaning that it's not an ordinary Math. like Add Math in SPM. more Detailed!

so, this is what i'm going to learn. still, i didn't know which one is for Sem 1.

English, Co-curiculum, Third Language,

Business Law,

Information Technology in Business,

Financial Accounting,

Financial Management,

Principles & Practice of Marketing,

Principles & Practice of Management,

Quantitative Business Analysis,

Speech Communication,

Microeconomics Analysis,

Macroeconomics Analysis,

Statistical Methods,

Job Application Process,

TITAS,

Managerial Economics,

Monetary Economics,

Econometrics,

Strategic Management,

Research Methodology,

International Economics,

Environmental Economics,

Business Forecasting,

Industrial Economics,

Issues in Economics,

Public Finance,

Labor Economics,

Electives.

See??? you can guess it's require more calculation than reading by just looking at the name. for now, i'm searching for info about Third Language. my Lecturer before told me that Third Language isn't compulsory to take but if i take it, i'll definitely take Korean Language. well~ :) but i'm not sure whether UiTM include this language or not. So far, i only found Arab, Mandarin, Thai, France, Japanese. i found a web for discussing and they were discussing about this matter. THE THIRD LANGUAGE.

most of them say it should be better to take Mandarin Class since business nowadays are conquered by Chinese. hmmm, still need to think a lot about this.

this is what they say :

"aku ajar bahasa jepun, jadi aku sokong bhs jepun lah!tapi 4 minggu pertama kena kerja keras belajar tulisan hiragana,katakana dan kanji(maybe-atas syllabus tpt kou org).budak yang yang ambil bhs jepun dan blh score pd akhir sem. mmg atama ii(otak pandai)..walaupun agak susah pd mulanya tapi di akhir sem kou org dpt belajar banyak benda baru spt tulisan,sentence pattern, vocab & lain2...berbanding dgn org yg ambil france, jerman dll mrk tidak belajar menulis mcm bhs jepun.aku pernah dgr org belajar bhs jepun ini lebih pandai bercakap atau lebih cpt berkomunikasi dgn rakan2 berbanding bhs2 yg lain...jadi tepuk dada tanya selera! ganbatte kudasai!(all the best)"

"Employers are always saying, "Preferably those who are proficient in Mandarin", "Mandarin speaking candidates preffered"

"aku amik bahse jepon sem 1 lepas...giler besttt..wut esemen pon dah jadi cam dak tadika lak.. lukis2..kaler2.. seronokk...aku sukee :clap::clap::clap::clap:"

"amik Mandarin laa.. sbb skg ni company byk cina"

(this is the best answer among all of them) --->

"kalau boleh ckp arab, dah boleh cover middle east, kalau pandai Spanish dah bleh cover Europe,
kalau pandai mandarin dah boleh cover mesia ;) kalau pandai jepun, hanya cover jepun shj...
depends on the individual objectives. to me the more you know, the better you are.."

aaa.. molla. najung-ee ddo saenggakhae.

btw, let say GOOD LUCK to myself. GOOD LUCK! FIGHTING!!

AirAsia AK5103

ya, sekali lagi kita bertemu wahai tanah di seberang. dan kali ini juga kerana terpaksa. terpaksa menyelesaikan sesuatu yang harus dan wajib dimatikan di noktah itu juga.

yeah people. i'm going back to Kuantan for a few days for some reason. i'm not going to play there for sure. just gonna settle down my business there. with something called 087. (only Law student know what it is).

Father had bought the ticket and i'm going to FLY there (again) this Sunday morning. and the 087 will be held on Monday at 9am. and yeah, i've something disturㅠing my mind, soul and body. i'm going crazy just thinking about it. you know that the 087 will started at monday which is just 2 days from now. but i haven't review anything about it yet. (ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!) no i;m not. i'm being serious now. i am. :/

why is this happening? i don't know. 저두 모르겠어요. aih~` i'm dead for sure if i keep on being like this. i must force myself to do it even though i know my mind wouldn't want to do it.  well, YOU control your mind. not YOUR MIND control you. so yeah. i will. wish me the best. :)

i realize this IS my second chance and i can't ask for more after this. bcz the second chance has been given. and if i didn't make it, i can't ask for more chances. and yeah, i don't think i deserve the second chance. i don't think everyone deserve it cz there's always a reason why you messed up on the first chance.

i should be grateful, i know. well, GTG. TTFN(ta ta for now)

안녕~

H.Sea (is it still exist??)

Hai! 안녕~~ :D

today, i went out with Shakilla and Erma. gosh~ i miss them so much. we talk a lot. share stories, jokes and everything. :D it was perfect except, Hafizah is not here. i'll justpost the picture. well, love your friend(s). and DO NOT BETRAY or DISAPPOINT them. value a person named ... friend. :)

stay healthy, people. :D

please ignore the messy table. :P

i hope this friendship will last long. :)

i LOVE you.

Keningau, Sabah.

Annyeong People~~ :D

so here i am... peace at home. a real home. the one i called "HOME SWEET HOME". my flight back was on 27th March 2012. i arrived the airport at around 7.30 (i guess).. My dear friend, Dayang Nuru Shukani was waiting for me. aigoo~ mianhae chingu-ya... she's

been at the airport since 5.30 cz she thought my arrival was around 6. 아이고~~ 진짜 미안해~ ㅠㅠ.. she brought me a 선물 (gift she bought at Jakarta on their holiday a few weeks back) i approach her first and didn't even realize omma and Dongsaeng-deul were there too. xD well, to make it short, i arrived at home at 10pm. fuhh~ a 12 hours journey from Kuantan (at 8am) till Kampung Bayangan (at 10pm). but it was fun though. a really amazing journey.. :) i was alone. there was none of UiTM students with me either in the bus nor at the terminal. 나 진짜 혼자에요.

I arrived at KL (Pekeliling) at noon and waiting for my cousin to pick me up and send me to the airport (KLIA). it was really awkward. LOL. cz i'm alone + with all the bags that i need to watch and stay safe. xD then, i took a picture since it was my last day in KL as a student of UiTM Kuantan Foundation in Law. InsyaAllah, if Allah wants it, i will be pursuing mt degree in law. insyaAllah. i'll try my best. :)

arrived at Pekeliling.

it was fun and Daebak to be with family again. with Omma and Dongsaeng-deul. people, Love your family and stay healthy :D

UiTM Campus Kuantan

started with a freshies.

first class = Law A

dear housemates == A303 (2011)

fellow DAEBAK classmates on my last semester

= Law L

i didn't regret my decision. :) please be healthy and safe. :') till we meet again...

the last journey...

annyeong~ hey people..
:) i just finish my last paper = Global issue this afternoon. with that, i've end up my foundation in law in Campus Kuantan. well, now, it just a matter of time. i'll be back home to Keningau in a few more hours. i know it sound silly. i should hanging around with friends first before going home since it's my last semester here. but who knows, .. well.. i'm the one who took this decision. it's because of that some small misunderstanding i have with my fellow roommates.

but it doesn't matter now. what matter is the separation we'll experienced in just a few mre hours. i didn't feel the sadness part of the separation before till Suria came and say goodbye to me. she's been helping me a lot this semester. i do miss her since she's no longer my housemates. i wonder why do they change our housemates. i guess it will be much better if they didn't change it. :'(

well, what i want to say here is that separation can bring both good and bad. it will make you happy and sad at the same time. but it doesn't matter on how you separate. what matter is the memories you've got and made while you were there with that person. him.. her.. them.. memories will stay forever. but they'll disappear if you let them go out from your heart. keep it nice, safe and clean.

the distance will be either far or near. but it will never be the same with the situation when you were in the same place with the person.


well, for everyone who knows me, thanks a lot for this semester. i have a great days and memories with all of you. it might be bad or good. but it still a memory. please be happy and take care. insyaAllah we'll meet again at Shah Alam. :')

CLOSE

reffering back to the tittle, CLOSE. what do i mean by saying CLOSE??
close... it has a general meaning.
actually, what i mean here is that a person who close to you. (past, present or in the future)..
have you ever heard of the saying " it feels good when a stranger become your friend but it sad if a friend become a stranger (suddenly) ".. i'm sorry. i can't remember exactly what the saying says. but the meaning is the same with the one i wrote.
well, as you know, i've lost my best friend on October 2011. it is a very sad and moment for me. i think that my whole life has been crushed into pieces. i don't think that she (my best friend at that moment) can understand well what did i feel and how her act effect my life at that time. i've been crying for 3 whole days. and it become more hard to me when i can't even told my mom the real situation about me and her. my mom knows her well and my mom is please for me to become friend with her. when mom ask me about her, i can't even speak because my tears will started to runs out. i try to hold back the tears and say to mom that she's okay. and then vooom~ i go straight to my room and ... cry.

once, i go to the road beside my home (it was a small(?) hill-like road) and cry there. i also say : 나쁜 놈이야! why did you do this?

then cry and cry and ... cry.

i don't know. i don't think i can tell the whole story about how bad my condition was at that moment. i just can't. i don't want to revall it ever. i don't want to feel the same sad and disappointed feeling again. ever.

what i want to highlight here is, the thing happen today. she mention me on twitter by saying "..... (??)" now what the hell does she wants from me again? if that person is reading this right now, i just want to say. you've made a big mistakes there. is that your way of saying hi to a person whom are now a stranger to you? and you also says : that i will be your friend forever. yeah. it's true. once a friend, he/she will forever be a friend. but i am no longer your best friend. and don;'t you remember what did you say last time? i don't think i even fit in your "FRIEND" list. i think that i am just someone you know. yeah. just someone you know. not even a friend. so stop pretending!

deep inside, i still wants that friendship to be back. but i just can't forgive you like that. i don't know. you want to call me, EGO? then be it. i don't care cz for me. i'm being ego because i've given up in every fight we had. so, i think it's your time now to start the move. 왜? 싫어? then be it. no one cares. you're the one who given up on us. (or me).



It's great when stangers become friends
But even sadder when those friends become strangers
We became friends and didn't even realize it
I trusted you and you trusted me
Now were like stangers to each other
But no matter what you'll always be my friend
Even if im not yours
It's great when strangers become friends
But even sadder when those friends become strangers

hidup di Kuantan yang penuh cabaran

annyeong people.... :)

it's been a long time since i wrote. i've got time but i just don't know what to say. maybe cz i'm busy with twitter. hohoho.. btw, by reffering to the tittle Hidup di Kuantan yang penuh cabaran = a very Challenging Life in Kuantan, well, i'm here today just to share some stories behind my life in Kuantan. fyi, this is my first time living in a stranger's land i.e not in home with mom and sisters and brothers. i NEVER stay at the dorm in school. and i never live far frm family for more than 3 days. but well, since it's my first time here at Kuantan, i thought it was good and so far, i didn't get that homesick problem. 다행이다 :P

this is my s2nd semester i.e last semester here, at Kuantan as a student of Uitm (Foundation In Law). this sem was better. thanks to that "bestfriend" i got in Keningau. i am now trying so hard to study and alhamdulillah i can understand what is law actually. different from sem 1. i don't even know what i study and how to answer the question. i just answer it based on what i think is right. (do not copy me. im a bad student :P) but alhamdulillah i passed. :) (i know. it's a miracle =.= )

this semester, i had moved to A205 with the same roommates but different housemates.
it feels awkward at first but then it was okay. just okay. maybe it just me who feel like that but well, you can't stop me to think what i want. :P

along this journey on sem 2, we had so many activities like dinner, sports, campus day out etc. i'll talk abt the activities later.

well, i think i need to stop here. need to study economy tonight. my final exam is on 16th March 2012. wish me luck! :)

안녕 people ~

it's been a long time huh. sorry, i was so busy - sleeping + assignment + classes. but most of it = sleeping of course. hahahaha... it's not that i'm being lazy or what. but, so many things happened lately and i don't have any close friend to share. what i have is just people who WANT to know. they don't really care actually. that's why i've been keeping it to myself.

so far, i'm okay. i still can handle it. well, by just being professional doesn't always make me feel better or what, it just make me feel more terrible at some times. you know what'll you be if you're being dishonest with yourself.

i'm not being someone whom others would want me to be. i was just being professional (for me). and putting some fake smile on my 입술. i know it doesn't work sometimes. but so far, no one realize it.

i didn't talk to my roommate like before. i just talk to them sometimes. i am sleeping almost all of the time. i was just awake at night. let them be. i know they were talking about me behind my back. but let just pretend they didn't.

well, sometimes... NOT KNOWING IS BETTER.

I've told them why i behave like that. i didn't told them exactly what happened. i just say that i've some problem, thus can't be cheerful or talkative like before.

nowadays : MY BED IS MY SOULMATE.

2 days ago, i can't hold back my tears when i watch IY where their mother come and greet them. i missed my family so much. never felt like this before. i don't know. maybe it's because i have enough and family is the only source for me to be happy. ( i guess)

well, since me and Sahranie are no longer close as before. (which really breaks my heart) nevermind, i don't care anymore (really??)

i want to talk more. but i have something to do. i'll update later. 안녕!




힘네 야냐씨!!!